Hurt Again

What is it about me that says "its ok"?
Why am I the one who must be strong this way?
Will I ever be allowed to cry or even fall apart?
Will there ever be someone, who'll care for my heart?
The answers aren't clear,
neither are my eyes.
I'm weak once again, from hearing love's soft goodbyes.
What happened to "your the best" and "I love you" so?
Doesn't seem to matter cause still I watch him go.
Yes, once again I'm hurt.
This time to my very bone.
For the first time I'm not just lonely,
I'm alone.
One day I'm going to get smart and learn to let go.
One day I'll keep my heart and truly reap what I sow.
Life isn't fair,  no one ever said it would be.
G-d why do I even care?
This makes no sense to me.
I'm a lady, fair and good, with a tender heart.
A lady, who deserves a strong love that will not fall apart.
So today I'm going to cry and feel heart break yet again.
Another romance gone.
Another really good friend.
With friendship I've been lucky throughout the test of time.
I'll love one day, I pray, I'll call someone mine.